Photography by Renata Amazonas
This. This is magic to me. Sustaining a life with my own body, the flow of energy that passes between us, the physiological changes that occur because of this beautiful exchange. We have gone eight months on this journey together and it has been wild and frustrating and blissful and painful, but it means everything to me.
This is magic to me. Sustaining a life with my own body, the flow of energy that passes between us, the physiological changes that occur because of this beautiful exchange.
At Leo's six month appointment we found out he had only gained four ounces in three months and our doctor recommended supplementing. At first I was devastated. Not because I was anti formula, but I felt disappointed that the one thing that I had to give my baby just wasn't enough. I think my biggest fear was that he wouldn't want to nurse anymore, and that shattered me.
At first I was devastated. Not because I was anti formula, but I felt disappointed that the one thing that I had to give my baby just wasn't enough.
But I realized that I have so much more to give him...our relationship is not solely built on breastfeeding. It's the constant, unconditional love that will keep the bond strong. The snuggles when he's drifting off to sleep, the reassurance when he falls, the endless repetition of the very hungry caterpillar. I'm giving him ALL of me, and that is enough.
Thankfully with nursing and formula he has gained weight and I have gained peace of mind knowing that my babe is happy and healthy. I know that eventually our breastfeeding journey will end, but until then I will celebrate this incredible magic.
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